A few weeks back I was really struggling with feelings of depression, helplessness, and self-pity. So I drove to a parking lot. Well, not just any parking lot. It was the parking lot of Westside Liquor located on the East side of town...(why they named it Westside I will never know...)
I am not exactly sure what my intentions were when I arrived there. Just wanted to sit and ponder. Ponder about going in and buying "stuff" (good "stuff"). I just wanted to buy a little liquid silencer to shut up the constant crap spinning in my head. You know the crap, "your a failure", "you suck", "your a lowsy person", "why can't you just get your act together", "you know you wouldn't have these problems if you'd only do this, and this, and this, and that." And so on, and so forth.
So as I was pondering in my car I noticed two more vehicles in the parking lot along with their occupants. I'm really talented, I can ponder and watch people all at the same time. Soon I found that these people were kind of entertaining.
There was a boy in a truck (older model--I'd say 1990's--dark blue--didn't catch the license plate) and two girls in a maroonish colored car. They were young people--early 20's or so. The boy was out of his truck leaning into the passenger side window of the maroonish car and appeared to be chatting away...
What happened next saved my sobriety that day. The twenty-something boy stood up, turned his back to the girls in the marroonish car and shot the moon. Yup! He pulled down his pants not once, but twice! And I smiled--real big...
But God is good and knows all that I need...
No longer was I pondering. The spin in my head had stopped. And I drove away without purchasing the liquid silencer. That visual was nothing I needed, yet all that I needed.
I will be eternally grateful to my Creator for the sun, the stars, and most of all the FULL moon.
That it folks,
"I like to think that the moon is there even if I am not looking at it"