My defect?—I could not express emotion—my assignment—“tell three people each day how you feel”. It was horrible. It was hard. After I had exhausted my repertoire of, “I am depressed”, ” I am angry”, ”I am fine”, “I am mad”, “I am tired”, “I am hopeless”, and “I am scared”, I was told that I needed new material.
Fortunately Merriam-Webster was available and able to provide a word or two (actually more like thirty some odd words for that is about how many days this assignment lasted). I’ll never forget the day that I came across the word ‘amethyst’ in the dictionary and I was able to say, “I am feeling like an ‘amethyst’. Of course the dictionary spoke of, “a clear purple or bluish-violet variety of crystallized quartz” blah, blah, blah… but, more importantly this dictionary told me that amethyst also meant, “Un-drunken”. Hence, that very fine day, I was able to assert my voice with confidence and announce to my peers that I was most assuredly feeling “un-drunken”. Here let me prove it—
“I feel ‘pendulous’, as in my boobs are hanging, my butt is hanging, even the
gut is hanging”. I feel droopy and sad both physically and emotionally—it is
most definitely a ‘pendulous’ kinda day…
“Grateful”-- the word is grateful...